Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Can I Get Off Now?

The past few days have been a whirlwind of activity ranging from offers and counteroffers on our house to Lily having another seizure, to trying to get work done and not worrying about what any blood work might reveal. As someone who is slow to process things I am sort of hanging on to the next few weeks, hoping against hope that I don't lose it too much. The good news is that she is feeling better, sort of. Seeing her hurt or lose consciousness is not something I enjoy. At all. In fact, I had nightmare after nightmare last night about her having another seizure and basically, at 2AM, just sat up for the rest of the night watching her breathe, taking her temperature and holding her. I feel like the walking dead right now, despite the 6 cups of coffee I had with the dude before I came into the office. I just feel empty and lost. And none of it feels good.