Thursday, October 26, 2006

Random Notes to Self

I have thought of lots of stuff this week, none of which is cool or interesting but still. Here you go.

1) I love that the weather is so cold now. Minus all the snotty noses in our house, nothing makes me as happy has my big duvet and wool sweaters. One of the things I miss most about living in the midwest is cold weather. This week has been a nice little reminder of home.

2) I was finally able to watch Gilmore Girls this week for the first time this season. If you haven't watched it yet, then stop reading. Ok, I was concerned about the Luke/Loralei situation and was afraid I would be really mad at Chris for coming back. But the moment she told him she needed to see him in the bathroom, he was my new love! I adore that she is able to talk to him honestly and say how she feels, even if it might not always feel good. I guess I loved that moment because that is something I deal with in my own relationship. Even though it is so scary to say what is inside of you, there is something so nice about being safe enough to be able to say what you are feeling. Ok, end of therapy session.

3) Post Gilmore Girls I actually was still able to sit and watch Veronica Mars, a show I had never watched but is now one of my favorites. If you haven't watched it yet, check it out.

4) Today they had mocha java at my coffee shop. My mouth is happy.

5) Tonight I get to watch Grey's Anatomy AND, AND eat kari kari, God's gift to the appetizer world. Plus, there will be cheap beer and dead cow on the menu. You can't go wrong with that.

6) My dog got into the trash on Monday and got to spend the night at the vet for dog food poisoning last night. She weighs 65 lbs so even a 25 lb weight at the bottom of the trash can does nothing. We are installing a can under the sink this weekend and I am pretty sure she can't ever get sick again with what this visit will cost us. However, for the queen, it is all worth it.

I think that is it. Again, nothing of importance, just my randomness. Sorry for the lack of links to shows. I just don't have the energy for it right now.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Dog Update

I just printed out my coupon and not only do I get a free Oscar Meyer hot dog, I also get a free 32 oz. drink. For once the gods are smiling upon me.

Sunday, October 15, 2006


A few years ago I made a sudden move back to where I came from. Upon checking my mail one day I ran into a friend that I had in high school and hadn't spoken to in about 10 years. I ended up hanging out with him quite a bit and reconnecting with other people I assumed were dead or in prison. One guy, who had just gotten out of jail for busting out a neighbors windshield while legally intoxicated, was telling me about a new job he had gotten at the local Kum and Go. Kum and Go used to be Git and Go, a more trailer trash version of QuikTrip, and was lovingly referred to as Ejaculate and Evacuate after the novel name change. When Joel started working there he was warned about someone getting a "cup of dogs". Joel quickly found out that a cup of dogs involved a person coming into the gas station, getting a 32 oz. cup from the fountain and then placing six to eight hotdogs into the cup, placing a lid on the cup and going to the register to check out. Taking a cup of dogs had become so popular at this particular Kum and Go that the clerks were required to ask buyers to remove the lids from their drinks for inspection. Upon hearing this story I only wished that I was genius that had thought of this.

I will be the first one to raise my hand and say that I love hot dogs. The word love doesn't even do justice to my feelings for them. Everyone kept telling me that I needed to ask for jewelry after having the bean, all I wanted was
this. I can eat hot dogs from street vendors, at baseball games and have been known to sit in front of our fireplace roasting hotdogs and drinking beer . Today as I was pumping gas at my neighborhood QT, I was distantly saw a sign on a column where I could vaguely see the word hot dog beaming out of the text. As I stepped closer to read the sign it was as if all my dreams were coming true. I could go here fill out a quick form and in mere moments be back at this very same QT pulling my hot juicy dog out of the turner. I realized after taking all of this in that it was my duty as an American to pass this info onto the world, or at least the three people who read this blog. Consider this your PSA for the day.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Sucking Hole

This week has about sucked my will to live. Between over eating vanilla cream cake, getting to bed late, listening for a sick baby to cough and stop breathing, netting 2 good hours of sleep a night and a dumbass grant process that popped up with two day notice, I am wondering if I have the ability to even brush my hair anymore. Which I didn't today and I am sure was noticed by everyone I work with. As well as the fact I was wearing flip flops, again, in October. I work with a woman who had her daughter 10 days before I had mine. She looks rested when she comes to work, she is out at meetings all day long, pumping as she goes, smiling all the way. I want to shove her down the stairs sometimes mainly because I am jealous that I don't have my shit together. I keep thinking with every month I am back at work, that she gets older, that my husband helps out more I will get it more together. Doubtful I think.

On a random note, as I was driving to work this AM I saw a guy get hit by a car while he was riding his bike across the street. Street is an inadequate way to describe a MAJOR thoroughfare that thousands of people drive on every day getting to work. He seemed to think that a yellow flashing light would indicate to people driving that they should stop. Well, dumbass, you live in a major metropolitan area where they don't share the road and where the road is still dark at 7 AM. He was fine, despite the fact he was riding without a helmet. He did have nice folks who stopped traffice for him to pick up his bike parts that were littering the road. The person who hit him kept driving. Ok, so I guess my day didn't suck that bad.

Friday, October 06, 2006

So, right.

I guess I lied because I have realized that if I can't even share my innermost worries, happiness and fear with anyone but my husband, how can I tell you internets? I can't. At least not before we have that third date. You know, that one. Ok, keep your hands in your pockets, we'll get there soon enough.

So, in fact, I will be telling you what I had to eat for lunch, what new shampoo I am trying this week and how to get those summer feet nice and smooth for winter snuggling. Let's do this.

ps-It was Spaghetti O's and not because my daughter was eating them. It's because I operate my life like an 8 year old who is married with a 4 month old child.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

It Can Happen to Anyone

Me getting knocked up is about as suprising as me starting a blog. I don't really know why I am doing this. I guess because peer pressure sucks ass. I don't think anyone really cares about my feelings about being a mom or all the things that seem to happen to our family. Who knows, maybe someone will google this enough and I will be famous. Or at least figure out a way to be creative.

I am not going to pretend that I am funny or a good writer. I know you don't want to hear what I ate for lunch today or how many times the doodle bug took a dump. I will be honest in this blog about being a mother; the joy, the fear and frustration because I don't think enough women talk about all the hard stuff that comes with taking on another roll. In short, I am a mother, a wife, a daughter and a friend. If I could only figure out how to manage them all.